Here I Go Again

Father, hear my prayer
I need the perfect words
Words that he will hear
And know they're straight from You
I don't know what to say
I only know it hurts
To see my only friend slowly fade away

So maybe this time I'll speak the words of life
With Your fire in my eyes
But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words
What am I so afraid of?

Chorus:
'Cause here I go again
Talkin 'bout the rain
And mulling over things that won't live past today
And as I dance around the truth
Time is not his friend
This might be my last chance to tell him
That You love Him
But here I go again, here I go again

Lord, You love him so, You gave Your only Son
If he will just believe; he will never die
But how then will he know what he has never heard
Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

This might be my last chance to tell him
That You love him
This might be my last chance to tell him
That You love him
You love him, You love him

What Am I so afraid
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid of?
How then will he know
What he has never heard

The Lord has really laid a few things on my heart the last week or so and maybe even longer to write about... but I always seemed to come up with some excuse why not to.  So as I sat down here to write this blog.  I was like Oh where do I start there is so much to say, so I got up and thought well I will have dinner first and the Lord said Start with your dream you had about your Friend Carrie....

I had a dream about my friend Carrie and we were driving down the road together in a jeep and Oh the road we were traveling was so bumpy and narrow, it was a dirt road.  As we were traveling down this road we were almost hanging on to keep from falling to get down this road, it was a rough road.  We come to a fork in the road and there were two roads to choose from. I honestly don't remember the name of the one road, but the other road was 1 Peter 3.  My friend wanted to take the other road and I said NO NO, that is the wrong road you must take 1 Peter 3.  We had even got out of the jeep and I almost had to struggle with her to convince her that God wanted her to Take the road 1 Peter 3.  So finally she said ok and I woke up.  Well when I woke up I grabbed the phone, not even out of bed yet to call my friend Carrie and tell her the dream I had about her, well when I preceeded to tell her my dream, she busted out crying, of course I grabbed my bible instantly to see what 1 Peter 3 was, cause in all honesty I had no clue.  It said: 1 Peter 3:1 - Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives. I had no idea that my friend was struggling with this and was trying to bring her husband to a closer walk to Jesus and was trying to hand things that should have been her husbands over to him. I had no idea that she had told the Lord that she felt she could do a better job at this perticular thing.  So after she had prayed to God about it then I called her up and tell her what my dream was.  Needless to say, I felt bad, cause she cried so hard, but she said she knew What God was saying to her.

The Lord recently brought that scripture back to me and while I was sitting in the Dr's office talking with some woman I had never met before.  She was talking about men and we started talking about 1 Corinthians 11:3 - Now I want you to realize that the head of every man is Christ, and the head of the woman is man, and the head of Christ is God. I said how some of the guys at work use to tease me about believing a woman should be submissive to their husbands and I told her my responce was, well I have no problem with that at all, but Christ better be the head of him.  Well on my way home from the Dr's The Lord told me Read 1 Peter 3 again and finish the sentence.  So of course I was thinking about it the whole way home and I come in and grabbed my bible. 1. Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, 2. when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. I realized that it meant even if they did not believe that the woman was still to be submissive.  First thing I did was asked the Lord to forgive me for saying what I had said. 

That made me think about being a Godly woman and what a Godly woman is to be how she is to look.  It says in 1 Peter 3 3. Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.  I thought wow isn't that beautiful.  That is how I want God to see me, that is how I want people to see me. When I was young I use to worry about what the outside of me looked like, yet I was a Christian at a young age.  Don't get me wrong I like being a lady.  God made me to be a lady and a lady I am.  But I don't long for jewelry and all that added fancy stuff.  I want only my inter beauty and love for Christ to shine through. That is what I want people to see when they look at me. When we walk out the door of our house and even in our house we are presenting ourselves for Christ.  Do we look of the world or is our beauty of something else... inward beauty?   If you want to read something great on a Godly woman read Proverb 10-31.  Proverbs 31:30 - Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

When we look at the whole picture we need to look at every detail.. Just like scripture we need to sometimes finish the whole sentence or paragraph.  God doesn't want us to be bits and pieces of the picture.  HE wants the whole painting for He is the artist, He knows every small detail of his painting.  HE see's everything in the picture.  Most of the time people think of the submissive part in Peter, but do they know the rest?  Do they know about the inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, Do they go on down the list where it speaks of the husbands rolel? It says right in God's word that woman are the weaker of the two. 1 Peter 3:7 - Husbands, in the same way be considerate as you live with your wives, and treat them with respect as the weaker partner and as heirs with you of the gracious gift of life, so that nothing will hinder your prayers. As heir with you.  The key thing here it says WITH YOU! It says if we do this NOTHING WILL HINDER YOUR PRAYERS!  WOW how amazing!  What a big statement.  1 Peter 3: 8-12 Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. 9. Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing. 10. For, "Whoever would love life and see good days must keep his tongue from evil and his lips from deceitful speech. 11. He must turn from evil and do good; he must seek peace and pursue it. 12. For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous and his ears are attentive to their prayer, but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil." It says to keep these things we shall inherit a blessing.

A beautiful woman in the eyes of God is a Godly woman.  Who more would we want to please then our Master? 

Proverbs 11:16 - A kindhearted woman gains respect, but ruthless men gain only wealth. 

Proverbs 11:22 - Like a gold ring in a pig's snout is a beautiful woman who shows no discretion.

Proverbs 14:1 - The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down.

Proverbs 30: 25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. 26. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.

Gracious Heavenly Father, Oh how I love thee Master.  Oh Most High, Beautiful Savior I want to be beautiful in your sight!  Lord I am yours.  I surrender everything to you Lord.  I humbly bow at your feet.  I want to be completely submissive to you.  I want to be that beautiful ruby in your eyes Lord.  Lord I pray I am all these things you would desire in a Godly woman.  You are the Love of my life Lord, for there is no greater Love then your Love Lord!  OH Thank you Lord for thinking of me that day on the cross!  Thank you for knowing me even before I was in my mothers womb.  Thank you for making who I am Lord Jesus, for I would be nothing without you.  Lord you are the potter and I am the clay, create in me what you would have me to be.  For I am Yours Forever and ever... I love you!  Amen

If you desire a good Godly relationship with your spouse, your father, your mother, friends, or anyone for matter of that fact. You need to have a good relationship with the one who loves you the most! For he is the one who will show you the truth and the way.  He will teach you a kind of love like no other.  There is no greater love then the Love of Jesus! 

My question for you is are you a beautiful woman in Gods eyes?

I have so many things I want to write about....So many things the Lord has laid on my heart lately.  Lukewarm Christians.... The Virtuous Women/Wife.... But while looking up scripture and studying these things.  The Lord laid something else on me....

It is about a story of a donkey and his Master....  This Donkey loved his Master.  This Master treated this Donkey wonderful.  So in return the donkey always wanted to do the best he could for his Master.  One day while plowing a field with his Master holding the reins behind him.  The donkey was so happy to serve his Master and loved him so, he turned around and looked behind him to look at his loving Master and as his eyes were off the path the Donkey didn't see the huge pit infront of him and fell in.  The Master come running to try and help his faithful and loyal servant, but the well was too deep to reach him.  The Donkey cried Oh no, I don't believe this... this is the story of my life, nothing ever goes right for me.  The Master ran for help.  He ran into the village to seek all the help he could get.  All the towns people come to try and get the Donkey out of the deep pit, but nobody could reach him.  OH the Donkey cried out, Oh I just don't believe this, it just figures this would be something to happen to me, nothing ever goes right.  When the Master seen he couldn't reach the Donkey no matter how hard they tried.  He said I love this donkey, he has been faithful and loyal to me and he deserves a proper burial.  Oh the Donkey really started complaining how could this be happening to him and just figures this is how I would die... So, All the towns people got their shovels and started to fill in the pit.  But when that first shovel full of dirt hit the donkeys back he shook it off his back and said OH my Oh my... then the 2nd shovel full, again the donkey shook it off his back and step on top of the dirt, the 3rd and the 4th shovel fulls of dirt hit his back, he shook off the shovel full of dirt and stepped up on top of the dirt.  At this point he realize he had started calling out to God, Oh Lord forgive me, Lord I love you and need you, as each pile of dirt hit his back he kept praying and shaking the dirt off his back each time it hit him and stepping up on the pile of dirt, until that donkey stepped up and walked out of that pit....because each time the dirt hit him he shook it off and stepped up, until he walked out of that pit.  Have we as Christians ever done this?  Something big comes at us and instantly we start whining and complaining... Oh just great, figures this is the story of my life, nothing ever goes right?  Do we instantly complain or is our first thought to cry out to our Master, Jesus Christ?  When life throws things our way and it hits up squarely in the back, we need to shake it off and step up.  Don't lay down and give up.  Stand up and step up...The more we step up the faster we will come up out of that pit. 

We serve a Mighty and powerful God and nothing is impossible with him... but where is our heart set?  Our heart needs to be set on him at all times.  If God has allowed something to reach us then he knows we can handle it, for his word says he will never give us more then we can handle...So if you have things on your back today shake it off and step up....

Father God in Heaven, Lord forgive us when we taken our eyes off you and doubt and fall into self pity.  Oh Lord forgive us.  Help us Lord to be strong in you and to always keep our eyes on you.  Help us Lord to not be our own worse enemy and beat ourselves up when we do fail and doubt, help us to realize we are human and do fail, but Lord Thank you that you are always right there to turn back to.  Lord you are always right there where we left you, for we know you would never leave us nor forsake us.  We Thank you Lord for Your love, and for Your faithfullness.  We even Thank You Lord for the dirt thrown onto our backs.. We Thank You for the strength to shake the dirt off and to step up and learn from all things... For Lord we know it is in the Valleys we grow.  Father we give you all the Glory in all things.  In your precious name we pray... Amen

Have you ever felt like how could I ever show God how my heart truly burst for him?  I often think there are no words to say how much I love him and sometimes feel frustrated that I can't express myself any more deeper then I do....and long to explode with my love for him.  If you know me, you know I love Jesus.... but there has to be more... What all can I do to show him??  I have never wanted to please someone more then I do my Savior....

Have you ever had someone you love truly ill, on their death bed?  A parent? A child?  A friend?  When we watch them lay helplessly and we stand there and we truly feel like our hands are tied behind our backs... Sometimes we feel so helpless and hopeless.... but We aren't.  We have the Lord!  I believe when we see a loved one or any one for matter of fact at a point that they are just in a state of not being able to call out or whatever.  We as Brothers and Sisters need to step in.  I think of Proverbs 13:12  Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when the desire cometh, it's a tree of life.  We need to believe for them... believe for our family member or friend.  In times of their deep need... I think of Mark 2...And again he entered into Capernaum after some days; and it was noised that he was in the house. 2. And straightway many were gathered together, insomuch that there was no room to receive them, no, not so much as about the door: and he preached the word unto them. 3. And they come unto him, bringing one sick of the palsy, which was borne of four. 4. And when they could not come nigh unto him for the press, they uncovered the roof where he was: and when they had broken it up, they let down the bed wherein the sick of the palsy lay. 5. When Jesus saw their faith, he said unto the sick of the palsy, Son, thy sins be forgiven thee. The part that stands out to me is When Jesus saw THEIR faith.  It was those 4 men's faith to carry that man to Jesus... They believe that all they had to do is get him to Jesus.  So I believe we are to never give up when someone we love has given up... We are to carry our brothers and sisters.....

You Raise me up

When I am down and, Oh my soul, so weary

When troubles come and my heart burdened be

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence

Until you come and sit a while with me

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas

                                 I am strong, when I am on your shoulders

You raise me up.... to more then I can be.

Isn't it awesome to know when we sit in wonder, or seek answers from our Heavenly Father we just need to sometimes sit and be silent?  When his presence comes to us...The serene peace....The love....The comfort....The knowing.. Our Heavenly Fathers presence... his voice....his touch.  Do we take for granted all these things?  Do we get up and just jump into our day or do we say Morning Jesus, What is it you'd have me do for you today Jesus?  Do we ask Him to be with us through out the day? Do we remember him Daily with Thankgiving and Praise?  Or do we just call out when we need something?  A personal relationship with Christ, is talking to him daily, confiding, sharing, and also listening.  Do we call our friends and pour all our problems out on them?  Why not talk to our Father?  The one who loves us more then anything, he loved us so much he sent his son to die on a cross for you and me.  Have you ever given birth to a Child?  Or Fathered a Child?  Do you know the love you feel for your Child?  Could you sacrifice your child and say I will let my one and only Child be killed to show you just how much I love you.... Have you ever really thought about this?  Could you watch your Child being tortured and beaten to death?  I think about these things.  Do we really know how much Jesus loves us?  He carries us through the stormy waters... He never lets go of us.  I believe at times we let go of him, but he never lets go of us, he is always right there right where you left Him.... Do we ever step back and look at the whole picture?  Do we look for Jesus in all things?  He is in the eyes of a Child, a sunset, a tree, the soil, all of it... He is in all of it... even in a tear drop.

Gracious Heavenly Father.... I thank You in all things.  I Thank You for each time You have raise me up so I can stand on mountains.  Lord I am strong when I am on your shoulders. Father I pray your words fill my heart.  I pray You are with me always and in every situation.  Lord guide me when I am witnessing to the Lost.  Father open the doors for me to go out and Tell the World about you... I am yours.  Lord I also want to Thank you for your answered prayers.  Lord touch my friend who is so sick...Gracious Savior touch him, breathe new life in him and make him whole.  Lord may everything in his body line up according to your word, for your word says by your stripes he is healed... Glory Hallelujah...Thank you Jesus. I love you you and stand in awe of your awesomeness... In Your most precious Name I pray... Amen and Amen

I was awaken this morning singing His eye is on the sparrow!!!!  Amen!  And I know he watches me!!!!  Well praise the Lord.  I had a friend heavy on my heart and I know the Lord was telling me His eyes are on the sparrow and that he was watching over my friend.  Thank you Gracious Savior!  Also Thank you Charlotte, you felt led to say what you said, you will never know how much that was a confirmation from the Lord to me.....more then you will ever know.  Thank you for being obedient to the Lords speaking... God Bless you my precious little sister in Christ!

His eye is on the sparrow

Why should I feel discouraged?
Why should the shadows come?
Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heaven and home,
When Jesus is my portion? My constant friend is He
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.
“Let not your heart be troubled, His tender words I hear,
And resting on His goodness, I lose my doubts and fears
Tho' by the path He leadeth, but one step I may see;
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

Chorus:
I sing because I'm happy,
I sing because I'm free,
For His eye is on the sparrow,
And I know He watches me.

Whenever I am tempted, whenever clouds arise,
When songs give place to sighing, when hope within me dies,
I draw that closer to Him, from care He sets me free;
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

What a wonderful God we serve.. He is always there right beside us, leading us, helping us, speaking to us and always no mater what loving us.  There is not a more beautiful relationship then a relationship with the Lord.  Can you imagine the day we meet the love of our life? Will we be able to withstand it?  Will we fall at his feet and wash his feet with our tears? OH heavenly Father how we love you!

Lord, I pray that you always know my love for you.  I pray everyone will come to know you and have the Love of a life time in you Lord.  Oh Gracious Savior, you are so faithful! May your hand always be upon me and may I always hear your gentle voice,  may I always know your leading.  Oh Thank you precious Savior.  May your out stretched arms always be on my mind and how when you were on the cross I was on your mind.... I will serve you all my days and sing Praises to your name. Thank you Father for being with those who are burdened on my heart.  Lord I know your hand is upon them and your will will be done!  Glory! Hallelujah!  In you most precious name I pray....Amen

This blog is dedicated to a precious Brother in Christ....

Every Season

Every evening sky, an invitation
To trace the patterned stars
And early in July, a celebration
For freedom that is ours
And I notice You
In children's games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer

And even when the trees have just surrendered
To the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September
And sending us inside
Still I notice You when change begins
And I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what has been and what's to come
You are autumn

And everything in time and under heaven
Finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white, all creation
Shivers underneath
And still I notice you
When branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even now in death, You open doors for life to enter
You are winter

And everything thats new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe
What was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season's change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring

Gracious Heavenly Father....you know this request even before I bring it to you.  Touch my precious my Brother....Amen

I haven't wrote in a while, well actually I did a couple blogs and some how lost them.....I woke up this morning singing Were you there when they crusified the Lord, or is it Lamb? or is it Jesus?  I am not sure, but funny how I knew the words while I was sleeping?? hmmm.... He always leaves me with something to think and ponder over for the day....  It gets me into searching for answers in the bible.  I think it's his way of keeping my nose in the word and on my knees in prayer....  Yesterday I woke up and had been told "Even in the tiniest, smallest light, There has to be power!!!!!"  I thought hmmm There's power in the blood, power in the blood.  Then I thought about it and felt the Lord saying even in the tiniest, smallest things, you need my power, to even let him handle the tiniest, smallest things not just the big things. Don't we serve an awesome mighty God, who saved a wrech like me?  Wow how awesome!!!  Thank you Jesus.  You are Worthy of all praise!!!!  When I think of that tiny mustard seed... Matthew 17:20 - And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you.  Have you ever looked at a mustard seed?  Wow this is amazing advise to anyone... all you need is to have faith the size of a mustard seed.  OH Thank you Jesus!  You are so Worthy! 

Worthy is the Lamb

 Thank you for the cross Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crown
You reign victorious
High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
The Darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb

I have no clue what I am going to do my blog on today so many things going through my mind.......the thing on my mind today is peoples motives.....the games people play.  It shocks me how some people act one way around some and differently around others.  I truly don't understand this. I am so shocked how selfish people are, they only think of themselves sometimes or all the time.  All I have to say is I am so glad Christ wasn't like that.  It makes me wonder if people think Christ is only there when they want him to be... it don't work that way.  He is always with us, he knows our hearts and our motives.

I wonder where family values have went to?  Where have the marriage vows went to?  We work long hours, both husband and wife these days outside of the home... while someone else is raising our kids and instilling their morals and values in them.  But you know we have to keep up with the Jones and have all the material things we can possibly get our hands on.  We spend hours upon hours pouring our hearts out to our co-workers or telling some other member of the opposite sex our hopes and dreams... but at home we are silent and hardly speak.  Our priorities have somewhere been lost in the race of this world.  People say well times have Changed...and yes they have but the bible hasn't...Never has and never will.....

Yes, I know I am old fashion and people probably think I am weird, but I really don't care what people think... I only care what Christ thinks of me and if I am living my life for him.

He called a little child and had him stand among them. 3. And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. 5. "And whoever welcomes a little child like this in my name welcomes me.

I will have to finish this later....

I woke myself up this morning singing a song...  I have done this many times, but usually it is singing praises to my Lord.  I have even had dreams where I am singing on moutain tops with angels and beautiful little children singing praises to my Savior.  I have woke up with my hands in the air praising my Savior.  Many times in my dreams I will praying....sometimes praying over someone.  It is awesome to know he is even in my dreams..... but this moring when I woke I thought hmmmm this is not of praise and worship, but I started thinking about the words....

Sorry seems to be the hardest word....

• What have I got to do to make you love me,
• What I got to do to make you care,
• What do I do when lighting strikes me,
• And to wake to find that you're not there?
•                                                                       
• What have I got to do to make you want me?
• What do I got to do to be heard.
• What do I say when it's all over?
• And sorry seems to be the hardest word.
•                                 
• It's sad (so sad)
• It's a sad, sad situation
• And it's getting more and more absurd.
• It's sad (so sad)
• Why can't we talk it over?
• Oh it seems to me
• That sorry seems to be the hardest word.
•        
• What have I got to do to make you love me
• What Have I got to do to be heard
• What do I do when lightening strikes me
• What have I got to do?
• What have I got to do?
• When sorry seems to be the hardest word.

I thought about the words to this song... of course if you have ever had your heart broken you could obviously take this song there... but I thought how many times has Jesus said some of these words to us, or how many times have we broken his heart and he's waiting on us to say we're sorry.  I wonder if he cries out What have to got to do to make you love?  I died on the cross for you.  What have to got to do to be heard?  I died on the cross for you.  What do I have to do to make you want me?  I love you, I died on the cross for you.  It's sad (so sad).  How his heart must grieve.  And it's getting more and more absurd... people turning away from him.  Why can't we talk it over?  He say's I am right hear to listen? What have I got to do, what have I got to do? I gave my life up for you...  Sorry seems to be the hardest word?  He says he will forgive eveytime, never to be brought up again.

I wasn't sure if I was going to touch on this part.. but how are we to forgive those who have hurt us?  I mean we get everyday bumps and bruises, but I am talking about the hurts that need major surgery? The deepest cuts.... Do we let the surgent (Our father) operate? or do we try to lick our own wounds????  Oh if I could ever give anyone more precious advise.. it would be run to the surgent (Our Father).  He can fix it the first time.. He can make you new.  If you try to lick your own wounds, trust me you will get infections that are hard to and even longer to get rid of.  It can hinder our walk with our precious one......Why drag it out, when it can be over in a matter of minutes with a simple I am sorry, forgive me, or a simple help me Father to forgive  those who have tress passed against me.... WE make it so hard sometimes...When we carry things that weren't meant for us to carry. 

Father forgive for the times I carried things that were meant for you to carry... Help me to always forgive and to always say I am sorry when I am wrong.  Forgive me when I have hurt you and know Lord that I love you, You are the love of my life and I thank you for dieing for me...in you precious name I pray.  Amen

Today while coming into my house I noticed a flower growing up through  my sidewalk... and it made me think wow nothing is impossible with God.  I believe he likes to give us little reminders of just how mighty of a God he really is... and that we are always on his mind.  Look at a sunset...His beauty.  Look at a rainbow....His covenant... Look at a new born baby.... His life....  It made me start thinking about our part in the gardening of reaching the lost.  I believe we plant the seeds.. through the word, the way we live our lives as example, or witnessing vocally.  There are times we are to plant the seed, water the seed and harvest the seed, but I have been shown that times we might only have one part in the gardening and God might have someone else to water or to harvest the seed.  We need not give up and know if he can make a flower grow through cement he can change a hardened heart...Amen

I was talking with a friend last night and I was telling her that God is my protector and he always has been.  It made me think of how my dad here on earth is my protector and my Heavenly father is my all time protector.  The other day my dad was at my house and we were outside working on something and some stranger stopped out side my house, got out of his car and started toward me to ask me something and before I could say anything my dad come around the corner never pausing as he walked toward the man and asked "Can I help you?"  I never had to say a word... and I thought wow that's my dad...and I thought and even bigger wow my father in heaven is the same way.  For example:  My friend and I were driving down this main road with a corn field along the side of us, so you couldn't see any side roads coming up and all the sudden I heard watch out... well I put my arm up across my friend and started breaking pretty hard and I really had no idea why, but as I did that some car come flying through an intersection that was not in sight from the cornfield.   They would have hit us... but Praise God my heavenly protector was watching over me.  One other time while traveling to Niagra Falls, we were cruising down the highway and the traffic was flying and thick and all the sudden Something said put your seatbelts on NOW... I of course said everyone put your seatbelts on NOW... well all you heard was click, click, click. and when the last seatbelt had click the car in front of us lost control and there was an accident... Wow how he protects us.  That caused us to slow down and to be paying attention even though it all happened in a matter of seconds. God is so faithful, he loves us, he is our true father.  He comforts us when we get hurt, he holds us, he speaks gently to us and calms our fears.  Sometimes I think he is one huge bandaid to protect our hurts and bruises in life.  Thank you so much Jesus...

Father God, Thank for all the times you have protected me.  Thank for the times you protected me and I didn't even know about.  Oh and Lord Thank you for my earthy father, That right there shows me how much you must truly love me to have pick my dad just for me.  Thank you Lord for I am blessed. 

As I sit here and wonder what to write about I think of the song Amazing Love.  It says I am forgiven because you were forsaken and I'm accepted you were condemned and I am alive and well your spirit is within me. Because you died and rose again.

When I think of what Christ did for me.  I am in awe, in total amazement, words can't even express it.  To think he laid down his life for me.. for me!  Who am I?  I am nobody.  But he loved me and he loves you.  When I think of all the things  he has done for me.  I think how can I ever repay him.  I truly love him, he is my all.  I strive to be Christ like in my walk.  I tell howevers of his love.  I treat people like he would want me to.  Sometimes it is hard but with Christ all things are possible.  I know when I see people hurting people I feel my soul ache and become very restless and I think how can we do this to one another.  Would we do these things if Christ was standing right beside us?  No... we wouldn't.. but here is the thing, he is with us.. he dwells within our hearts.

I think about the people who come into our lives... it may be for a moment, a day, weeks, months, or years.  Whatever the season is.. each person is there for a reason and Gods timing.  Are we witnessing?  Are we telling them how he died for us. Are telling them his return is near?  This all makes me think of the time where I worked, it was Easter and our plant shut down every year for 3 days for inventory, and we always had to call in to see what day we were to return if at all because they were laying off.  I wasn't the least bit worried cause I had a good position and new I was a good worker, plus I always know Gods in Control.  When it was time to call in to work I was told I was layed off.  I was like wow.  I was a little shocked but not worried.  I called a temp agency instantly and I knew the Lady there and she was like shocked I got layed off, but she had no assigments available at all, but while we were talking she said hold on one minute I am getting a fax, she come back on the phone and said " I just had a job come in.. Can you go tomorrow morning?"  "Of course" I said "sure."  So I go to my new job and toward the middle of my first day they had sent me to a different deptmart to train on something else and I looked and there was a girl I hadn't seen since high school.  I was glad to see her, but yet wasn't sure how she would be because I remembered her attitude in school, but it ended up we had the best time.  She told me about her life, she wasn't a Christian, so I told her my story and that I was a Christian.  I was a little scared talking to her about things, cause I kept remembering her temper in school, but it ended up we laughed and had a ball sharing our lives with each other.  When it come time to leave I told Tina I will see you tomorrow morning.  We even followed each other until my turning point home and waved good bye.  I got home and called my old job to tell them to hold my check I would drive up and pick it up the next night, to be asked why wasn't I at work?  I said I was layed off.. they informed me Get in here.. you of all people are not layed off.  I told them I would be back the following day due to I had already worked all day.  I thought wow now this is weird and don't make sense... But the following morning we had a wierd ice storm with black ice everywhere and on the way to work Tina lost control of her car and hit a telephone pole and layed in a coma and died a few days later.  This is hard for me to write because I live with the wonder if she had time to ask Jesus in her heart?  Obviously God put me there that day and I was somehow told I was layed off, yet I wasn't....People don't ever miss the opportunity to ask someone if they want to except Jesus in their hearts.  You never know how long your moment is going to be with that person and God puts them there... there isn't such a thing as a coincidense. 

Don't waste time arguing... Spend time loving as Christ would want us too...

Father I pray I never miss the chance to ask someone if they want to know you....Amen

Well I just lost my entry.... and to be real honest I was upset, but I have to laugh now.. because my blog was about not getting discouraged and standing up and fighting the good fight....That God is still in control.  So..... I just stood back up and dusted myself off and on my way to re-write my blog.  God is still in control.

One of the many things that have been on my heart lately is... When we Christians get attacked by the enemy.  I have seen friends be attacked, not just one but many including myself this week.  Wow that old devil is getting worried, for his time is limited... I believe when we are being attacked we obviously must be doing something right, for the devil don't want the lost.. he already has them.  One thing I do when I am under attack is I take a look whats going on around me, where I am spiritually and I visualize Me standing there, and Jesus is in front of me, then there's the old devil on the otherside of Jesus throwing his firey darts toward me... I see Jesus saying No Satan not that one and catching those firey darts.. and the ones that reach me.  I hear Jesus say I know she can handle that one, for I will NEVER give her more then she can handle.  Thank you Jesus.  I also remind my self when trials come, as they always will is THIS TOO SHALL PASS.  Amen  For even in the trials he is with us, for his word says I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU.

Trouble & trials often they clutter my mind and mile after mile oppression is upon every side, but I kneel and pray and cry out Lord hear me.  I need you to comfort my soul, then he whispers don't cry for YOUR soul I died.  I am God and I'm still in control.

Christians are falling away from the Lord today.... Christians be bold.  In Amos it says: This is what the LORD says: "As a shepherd saves from the lion's mouth only two leg bones or a piece of an ear, so will the Israelites be saved, those who sit in Samaria on the edge of their beds and in Damascus on their couches.  The lion destroyed the the lamb, it ate it up, the only thing left was two leg bones and a peice of ear.  But as long as there is an ear to hear and a leg to stand on.  Don't give up.  God is still in control.  Glory!!!! Hallelujah!!!  Thank you Jesus.

God is still in Control and Jesus is still on the thrown... The battles not over.... The VICTORY is already won!  Cause God is still in Control.  Thank you Jesus!  Hallelujah!

Precious Lamb of God... Lord we praise you and Thank you for all you have done in our lives. We Thank you for all that you are about to do.  Lord I lift each one of my brothers and sister up and ask you to touch each one of them, comfort, shield and protect them.  Father help us to edify each other up and walk hand in hand as soldiers for you Lord as we tarry onward toward the finish line giving you all the Glory and praise for the victory is already won.  Father may you always dwell within us and your voice speak to our hearts. Gives us the words to always encourgage our brothers and sister and to know when to say it.  Help us oh Lord to be bold and to daily put on our armor to fight the good fight.  Father we love you and praise you, we could never tell you enough how much we love you.  In your precious name we pray.  Amen and Amen.  Thank you Jesus...  We Thank you. 

In the valleys I grow.

 Sometimes life seems hard to bear,

 Full of sorrow, trouble, and woe

 It's then I have to remember

 That it's in the valleys I grow.

 If I always stayed on the mountain top

 And never experienced pain,

 I would never appreciate God's love

 And would be living in vain.

 I have so much to learn

 And my growth is very slow,

 Sometimes I need the mountain tops,

 But it's in the valleys I grow.

 I do not always understand

 Why things happen as they do,

 But I am very sure of one thing.

 My Lord will see me through.

 My little valleys are nothing

 When I picture Christ on the cross

 He went through the valley of death;

 His victory was Satan's loss.

 Forgive me Lord, for complaining

 When I'm feeling so very low.

 Just give me a gentle reminder

 That it's in the valleys I grow.

 Continue to strengthen me, Lord

 And use my life each day

 To share your love with others

 And help them find their way.

 Thank you for valleys, Lord

 For this one thing I know

 The mountain tops are glorious

 But it's in the valleys I grow!

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